I've lived in Calgary for over 20 years, and I've had enough of the creativity-crushing, soul-sucking Family Land of vanilla people and beige furniture that has made me feel like an outcast and a freak the entire time I've lived here. (If having a family is the only thing you can think of to make your life meaningful, you'll love it here. If you have ANY OTHER PURPOSE in life at all, Calgary is NOT the place to "Find yourself"!)
I was semi-retired, but I just got a full-time position because I told my boss that I'd rather be around people who are paid to like & respect me - at least we're all on the same page here...I told her I'd rather be at work than out in the rest of the world, so I'm actually intending to go into seclusion (Just home & work) for the next couple of years...every time I try to deal with people, they make me feel bad about myself deep down inside, and men really finished me off this time. One thing is certain - I DO NOT FIT IN no matter how much pot I smoke to suppress my personality!! People don't even like me when I'm happy because I'm too high energy, so they kill my rare good moods - it's fucking toxic here!!!) I'm just going to travel to dance, and have fun, and feel sexy, so I don't have to get to know anyone, and there is no one to tell me "I could never be with someone like YOU." People are shit - I used to be a really nice, fun, happy, interesting person, and I intend to be that way again! ...just not here anymore...
I actually have a couple of stress disorders, anxiety disorder, and depression from my experience with people... every really unique and interesting person I know here is painfully depressed and feels somewhat alone, even in crowds.
It is time to get out of town, and reset my mental state back to "positive"!
I am a really positive person, and I'm taking my positivity somewhere else to share it! First destination: Las Vegas Nevada, with Nauseator, and a couple of cameras to shoot promotional photos for my 4 different music projects. :)
