Industrial Metal: Vol.2 Dead Inside - Countess Carcass

Vol. 2 of the Countess Carcass solo industrial music projects

now out on bandcamp!

The complete 2018 releases!

 Bandcamp link: Vol. 2 Dead Inside - Countess Carcass Collection

Includes Tears of Blood (Gaping Anus)

Make It Hurt EP (Apocalyptic Flesh Machine)

Suffering So Sweetly EP (AFM)

Nightmare Assemblage EP

Countess Carcass: Link to 18+ Adults only page

Join me in my ongoing refusal to put my panties on!

Link: Lady Apocalypse's 18+ Adults Only Page

If you don't like tattooed lady parts, don't look!

2020 Official Music Video Directory:
New:

"Options Limited to Suffering" OFFICIAL Video (Remix for Tomhet)

"Psychic Glitch" OFFICIAL Music Video (18+)

2019 Video Directory:

Link: Music Video & XXX Directory Page

**More videos to come!

Industrial Metal: Vol1: Complete 2017 releases by Countess Carcass

Available now on Bandcamp:

Vol. 1 Sick, Savage & Sexy - the Complete 2017 music releases 

by Countess Carcass

Get it Here:

https://countesscarcass.bandcamp.com/album/vol-1-sick-savage-sexy

Angry Rant #1: When the Antidepressants are Working I'm Left With Intense Rage

I was a really sweet person with a lot of energy, ideas, and enthusiasm to become involved...

People here have hurt & offended me deeply... when the pills make me stop crying, all I feel inside is intense rage... I am a cripplingly shy person with a long history of people going out of their way to make me feel bad about myself as a person...but I still went out there and opened myself up to the world, offered myself and my soul to a few lucky fools who shoved me rudely away...I had so much positivity to share with the people around me, and I was treated so shamefully cruelly and carelessly.

I am not as strong as people assume.

People have made me feel so profoundly awful from so deep within.

Fuck the World!
I'm done being nice.

It has also been made painfully clear to me that men may think a woman with a tattooed face is nice to look at, but they don't want to touch her AT ALL!

Men failed me badly...
You know who you are!

Too Many Turds In My Punchbowl: Time to Skip Town!

I've lived in Calgary for over 20 years, and I've had enough of the creativity-crushing, soul-sucking Family Land of vanilla people and beige furniture that has made me feel like an outcast and a freak the entire time I've lived here. (If having a family is the only thing you can think of to make your life meaningful, you'll love it here. If you have ANY OTHER PURPOSE in life at all, Calgary is NOT the place to "Find yourself"!)

I was semi-retired, but I just got a full-time position because I told my boss that I'd rather be around people who are paid to like & respect me - at least we're all on the same page here...I told her I'd rather be at work than out in the rest of the world, so I'm actually intending to go into seclusion (Just home & work) for the next couple of years...every time I try to deal with people, they make me feel bad about myself deep down inside, and men really finished me off this time. One thing is certain - I DO NOT FIT IN no matter how much pot I smoke to suppress my personality!! People don't even like me when I'm happy because I'm too high energy, so they kill my rare good moods - it's fucking toxic here!!!) I'm just going to travel to dance, and have fun, and feel sexy, so I don't have to get to know anyone, and there is no one to tell me "I could never be with someone like YOU." People are shit - I used to be a really nice, fun, happy, interesting person, and I intend to be that way again! ...just not here anymore...

I actually have a couple of stress disorders, anxiety disorder, and depression from my experience with people... every really unique and interesting person I know here is painfully depressed and feels somewhat alone, even in crowds.

It is time to get out of town, and reset my mental state back to "positive"!

I am a really positive person, and I'm taking my positivity somewhere else to share it! First destination: Las Vegas Nevada, with Nauseator, and a couple of cameras to shoot promotional photos for my 4 different music projects. :)

When you've tried everything you can think of to fix a problem, sometimes removing yourself from the equation entirely is the answer.

Sometimes Doing the Right Thing Can Turn into the Ugliest Mistake

Around about the year 2000 or so my younger brother worked at the Salvation Army in Vancouver (Shelter, soup kitchen, etc). He said a homeless man had come in with no shoes on one day, and he literally took the boots off his own feet and gave them to the man. (He actually walked home in his socks) ...the next day it was discovered in that man's room that he had restrained and hung someone with the laces from those boots.


My brother really had a hard time with that...  I know how he feels... you spend your life always trying to do the right thing and be a good person, but the ugly world makes the nice people hurt so much inside...


(In loving memory of my now deceased brother, Rick Jones. I wish I had the peace you now have.)

Music Video: Tears of Blood (Gaping Anus - short / PG version)