Too Many Turds In My Punchbowl: Time to Skip Town!

I've lived in Calgary for over 20 years, and I've had enough of the creativity-crushing, soul-sucking Family Land of vanilla people and beige furniture that has made me feel like an outcast and a freak the entire time I've lived here. (If having a family is the only thing you can think of to make your life meaningful, you'll love it here. If you have ANY OTHER PURPOSE in life at all, Calgary is NOT the place to "Find yourself"!)

I was semi-retired, but I just got a full-time position because I told my boss that I'd rather be around people who are paid to like & respect me - at least we're all on the same page here...I told her I'd rather be at work than out in the rest of the world, so I'm actually intending to go into seclusion (Just home & work) for the next couple of years...every time I try to deal with people, they make me feel bad about myself deep down inside, and men really finished me off this time. One thing is certain - I DO NOT FIT IN no matter how much pot I smoke to suppress my personality!! People don't even like me when I'm happy because I'm too high energy, so they kill my rare good moods - it's fucking toxic here!!!) I'm just going to travel to dance, and have fun, and feel sexy, so I don't have to get to know anyone, and there is no one to tell me "I could never be with someone like YOU." People are shit - I used to be a really nice, fun, happy, interesting person, and I intend to be that way again! ...just not here anymore...

I actually have a couple of stress disorders, anxiety disorder, and depression from my experience with people... every really unique and interesting person I know here is painfully depressed and feels somewhat alone, even in crowds.

It is time to get out of town, and reset my mental state back to "positive"!

I am a really positive person, and I'm taking my positivity somewhere else to share it! First destination: Las Vegas Nevada, with Nauseator, and a couple of cameras to shoot promotional photos for my 4 different music projects. :)

When you've tried everything you can think of to fix a problem, sometimes removing yourself from the equation entirely is the answer.

Sometimes Doing the Right Thing Can Turn into the Ugliest Mistake

Around about the year 2000 or so my younger brother worked at the Salvation Army in Vancouver (Shelter, soup kitchen, etc). He said a homeless man had come in with no shoes on one day, and he literally took the boots off his own feet and gave them to the man. (He actually walked home in his socks) ...the next day it was discovered in that man's room that he had restrained and hung someone with the laces from those boots.


My brother really had a hard time with that...  I know how he feels... you spend your life always trying to do the right thing and be a good person, but the ugly world makes the nice people hurt so much inside...


(In loving memory of my now deceased brother, Rick Jones. I wish I had the peace you now have.)

Music Video: Tears of Blood (Gaping Anus - short / PG version)

NecroFiles: Pics of me & my skeleton

These photos lost me 7+ followers on instagram - they are pretty tame!! This isn't even my real medical skeleton either!



People are way too uptight!



...what were they expecting when I describe myself as "Ms. Fucker of Corpses"?

Clearing the Air: Answering Questions about Open Marriage w/ Countess Carcass

So... it seems that many people are getting the impression that I am some kind of dishonest cheating piece of crap...even if I'm not even remotely flirting or interested...

Let's clear some things up here:
1. My marriage (to Dick Splinters) is, and has always been an OPEN MARRIAGE. For BOTH of us.

2. I tell my husband everything. In advance. If I offer some kind of sexual anything (which is very rare) I have permission well in advance. I don't lie! And I don't cheat! I'm pretty insulted that people take me for this sort of person! I'm sure I'm way more honest about myself with my spouse than most people in closed-relationships!

3. If I do offer anything sexual, it is rare and meaningful, and more so because I have my husband's permission. I don't appreciate being treated as though what I offer is meaningless because it comes from a supposedly "cheating" wife. People are extra-harsh when self-righteously rejecting a married woman.

Me & my husband, Dick Splinters
Marriage currently open for him only -
feel free to look him up on Instagram, ladies!

4. I am not actually available at present - the marriage is open for my husband only right now. So, if I'm being friendly, it means nothing more than you've caught me in a good mood. Men have left a terrible impression on me as a group - I don't want any of you as much as none of you want me. (Yes, I realize the face-tattoo is also a major factor) So you can stop rejecting me when I'm not offering anything!!!!

My husband and I are married out of friendship and we discuss all things always - that's what makes Open Marriage "Open" - it's not about sex at all! It's about open communication!

All the weenies out there who can't deal with being a married woman's friend, or who turn down something special because they make erroneous assumptions about my character can all stick it up your butts!!!
My husband is just as mystified as I am about some of the attitudes out there!

Wound Make-Up: Boob wounds with Safety Pins

 

Wounded!

Tried to pin myself together for a night out with Hello Moth, Die Scum Inc. & Strvngers

Countess Carcass & Die Scum Inc.

Make every day Halloween!

Wound Make-Up: Gaping Neck Wound

You won't get anything meaningful out of being with me.